Just A Lil Thing..xo.

well hello there again. i'm in an okayish mood. Man every time i look at that photo, it  makes me feel soooo old and ... OLD. i'm 18 this year and GOD it has gone too quick. I want to be 7 again :(. But sadly i can't. Anywho.. i shall blogg about ... things now.. :).

so yes, this weekend gone i went to a couple of bbq (told you its nearly summer :D) hehee. The first one i went to was very interesting. It actually felt like something that should of happend in Eastenders, No really..:/. But yeah, i went to my older bros mums house for the first time in like 10 or so years. It was a lovely bbq and stuff but wow. I saw all my step family and stuff, my older bro didn't even get there till really late AND i was playing mum because my parents are stuck in the West of Africa. (Don't worry, they are living it up in a 5* hotel and shizz. Oh and its all because of this volcano shizz too yeah) So yeah, we finally felt all normal and stuff at this BBQ and then out of the blue i get a phone call from my mum from Africa.. (eastenders theme tune plays) hahhaa.. I basically had to tell her i was at my dads EX'S house.. :? You could imagin my face when i told her though hehe. Told you, it was the kind of thing that happens on soaps and stuff right? lol.

ON SUNDAY. :) 

It was me and hoaans cousins 10th birthday. It was AWESOME. It was a kinda formal thing y'know?  It was nice, we had the worlds most BEAUTIFUL red wine ever... ooohh how tasy it was. sorry, im aboit of a wine freak hehe. but yes it was lush. that day i was also playing mother and tbh ... it was fun. All the family was overly proud of me haha. they also felt sorry for me too. Feel so much like an orphan at times y'know. . .? These past 2 weeks we have had like 2 aunts and 2 nans looking after us, comming back and forth .. its driving me mad!!! But i guess we gotta do what we ... gotta ... do?? :? haha.  funny stuff. So yeah it was nice getting back in touch with you all and i really hope you can take time to read my blog and comment and stuff. 

POHD xxxxx.

Ffs.. im sooo sooo soryy and the sad thing is.. this isnt going to be a long blog.. i actually want to CRY! So much has happend.. theres so much to blog about and tell you piczo-peeps! Argh so so mega gutted. Oh wells... i guess?

So the deal of me not blogging for sooo long: ive had no internet for AGES.. infact, since my last blog? :( virgin media have totally fucked up my life tbh. Hmm.. so yeah its real hard to blog if i'm doing it from my blog or from someones house like im doing now lol. I'm actually at Pegzyx's house in colchester atm. Doing this mini blog sucks people :( makes me want to DIE haha. But yeah, this HAS to be short and simple and im so sorry. Keep blogging yyou amazing people and i hope that you have time to read this and understand my emotional situation LOOOL haha. Love you guys oh and contact me through these:

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Peace Out Home DAWGS :) XO.

Pohdxx

So yes. I did find God, Again. Well actually this time he found me x). All morning i've been Christian rocking even know i'm a Jew. Sad. Yes. LOL. But yeah i didn't realize how many amazing Christian rock groups there where in the world?

I bet i'm not the only clueless one am i? For you guys who are Christian, or not! Or maybe your just a Jew who can't be assed to check out Jew bands or you just don't have an opinion on religion or WHATEVER; These bands are GUARANTEED to rock your socks and yes. I do recommend as soon as you have read this you should go on to you tube and check them out :)

Totally worth it guys hehee..x

Christian Rockers:

Barlow Girl.

Flyleaf.

Bread Of Stone.

Day of fire.

Hilary Kole

Seventh day slumber.

Skillet.

The Fray.

Canopy red.

Further seems forever.

Forever changed.

Good morning midnight.

Ivoryline.

Johan33.

The Myriad.

Seven Places.

Seven Glory.

The letter Black.

Twothirtyeight.

Hope you do get a chance to check these bands out sometime because they are real good! 

Well i'm out for now dudes. 

POHD..ox. <3

But yeah, I chilled out with my twins bro Jordan at first because his just overly cooool! His sucha a legend its unreal! So yeah, we just watched funny manga videos and some crawwaazyy kawaii stuff..! He also showed me all his new xbox games and yeah that was cool too. :D He has the cutest manga doll ever which i'm totally in love with right now, pretty geekish? Yeah sorry but WOW! Its too cute! Ahh, I had fun chilling with him and stuff :D.

So yeah, after we we chilled and talked and what ever we went out to eat and shizz, and that was fun lol. Tried Pear Cider HAHAHAA! First time ever lol. Trust its nicer than apple cider dudes..  :/ hehee.

Hmm.. so saturday, Saturday..? Ooo Saturday..!! x) Saturday my lovely  nan was ill :( so i didnt get a chance to see her. Worked all day, had fun with all the cool chicks at work haha. OMG and after work? SHIZZ. :D was sooo cool? 

I havent actually had an awsome night out before? You get your good nights, and your fun nights, and your just plain cool nights, but this night was different! ..... It was AWESOME!! xD xD xD!!

Me and some bad ass chick from work tried to get tickets to go see Ellie Goulding at Chinnerays down by Southend sea front, but they where sold out .. *wipes tear* x[. So we gotta bear, had a 2 min depression then walked out that bar wanting KAY-YOS. 

haha..

We bought a CHEESE BURGER, [yeah where bad ass we know ;) LOL] and had onions put in it  OOOHHH where too cool! * Drools, tbh, If i was with anyone else i would NEVER had bought a cheese burger from a burger stand? Thats just gross. But we where pissed off and decided beer and burgers was the way to get revenge on each other loool. So yeah, we got in her car and CRANKED IT UP!! hahah xD. We sat around for a bit, just drinking and munching and skanking hard to some Chase & Status ;). Then.. lol [the best part] Went ona joy ride round Southend haha, that was the most awesome thing ever! Shes so bad ass its unreal? Charlotte and I spent most of the time at the traffic lights waving at chavs and pulling dumb ass faces haha. But it was cool. Oh btw peeps, drink driving is against the law and getting into a car with a person under the influence of alcohol is very very very dangerous..!! So don't EVER do it..!!  

Yep. Its Sunday today, and ive just kinda got in. I'm bored already LOL. I went church today haha. Man that place puts a load of guilt on your shoulders haha. I guess i need it some times.. but, from a Rabi not a pastor? Thats just weird :/ lol. I went to see my ONLY uncle today and i tell you it was sooo nice. All my life his lived like round the corner to me, but since we've move, i haven't see him much and its pretty upsetting :(. Seeing him has made my day for sure :D :D.In stead of roast today, i had lasagna ? Pretty weird right? But anyways. Ima go now my fingers have passed the line of feeling guilty for not blogging? Ok not even i got what i just said so yeah, ignore that one lol. haha. 

Peace Out Home Dawgs ox. <3